Day 3 : A picture of the cast from your favourite show

Legend... *wait for iiitttt* dary!

Need I say more?

A Love Note

...from my daughter. I was going through some letters today. This hence is one of the most meaningful one. In addition to the the heavy rain outside, I feel the urge to men-jiwangkan diri.

Hey Dearest Mommy. :) *You must read this while enjoying the chocolate. if you oredi read awal2, read again WITH THE CHOCOLATE. WAJIB. *

You know I've had few mommies throughout my years as a prefect, but you're the one I LOVE MOST! *sssh, don't tell anyone* Tehee. I'm so gonna miss you when you're gone. :( Lagu jiwang again this playing as I'm typing this. Oh, before I begin with anything, forgive me for not being creative and not having the tome to buy a proper card. It's okay if you wanna buang this thing. : | sorrrryyyyyy! Last minute!

*coughs* Okay here goes. When I first got you as my mom in form 1, I was sooo terribly nerbous. I was wondering like, "Oh no, Jane. Garang la dis. Die lah meeee." Then when I got to know you more, I thank God that I got one of the best mom ever! Muah muah! It's amazing to know how time's flying and yet it's a sad thing at the same ti

me. Sigh.

Jane, you're such an amazing girl. Very charismatic, talented, charming, patient, gorgeous young lady. Although at times pandai juga ter-meletup but it's okay. People have their bad moments. * I observed you when uou weren't looking:P *I'm so gonna miss you when you leave this school. You and your husky voice, petite lil' body, wide smile and amazing eys. *uiseh, nni baru laa compliment:D * I will miss all the things we did together, like the e-PPDA? :) and more lah. All and all, I wish all the best for your upcoming BIG EXAM! I kno wyou can do well, and I know you'll be able to go through it. Lepas habis SPM, berdung-dang lah kan? Wait for me! I still have a year to go before I can join in the fun! Do keep in touch kays? Jangan lupa meeeeee.

Once SPM'S over, my dearest mommy will mengenjoykan diri,

but janganlah lupakan anakmu yang masih stuck di school ini,

wait for me and together we will berdung-dang,

and make everyone turn their head and go DANGGGGG! ;)

Love you Jane Chantal Pain! LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOUUUUUU! Thank you for everything! <3

FYI: I'm listening to your singing now. Soul sister ;) Lovin it.

*****

Who knew a year passed by so fast! *mcm baru yesterday u gave me this letter* Now it's your turn sweetheart. I know you will do well in your SPM. I know it very well. Thank you for making mommy proud in sooooo many ways. ALL THE BEST! GOOD LUCK SYG! Though it's few weeks away, treat this as an official wish to you :)

Prefects Installation, July 2008. ( Note: Ignore my 'ancient' look plsntq)

Love you, Konea!

Day 2 : I've been closest the longest with...

*drum rooooolllll*

The one and only, my Mom. Taken at Genting Highlands, March 2010.

Attached to her for 9 months and 10 days (sampai ka 10 days Mom? ) where she carried me around. She is my best friend, my listener, my part time partner-in-crime, and the only thing that will keep us apart is...

she is a ManUtd fan. Nevertheless, thank you for being there for me. I never regret quarreling with you (of course I do! ) because that made me realize how much I am afraid to lose you. Deep in my heart I always ask for forgiveness for all the pain I caused for being too self-righteous.

Thank you for just being there during my ups and downs. Thank you for searching the best dress for me to wear. I will make you proud.

Love, Girl.

xoxo

10 facts about yours truly

Taken during Andrea's bday at RCH.

#1 I have a very slight uneven skin tone on my cheeks area. Thus, I put on BB cream when I go out.

#2 I speak fluent Malay & English + almost fluent Kadazan.

#3 I am afraid of height. I despise balconies and escalators in shopping malls but I am improving with the escalators.

#4 I am not tall. My second sister is by many centimetres taller than me. Sob.

#5 If the salesperson is following after me in a shop, I will take my exit immediately even if I wanted to buy a certain thing badly.

#6 The upper part of my teeth is not straight. I need braces. I will be gigi besi-fied around next year, hopefully.

#7 I love kids. Count me in for baby sitting.

#8 I got Naib Johan for Pertandingan Pidato Piala Diraja Peringkat Kebangsaan in 2005. Good old days. (n this is a fact, I am not showing off ;)

#9 I will not do my bussiness on a seating toilet bowl in public toilets. I will insist myself to search for a squatting one. ( too detail? )

#10 I wanted to be a television presenter when I watched Daphne Iking hosting Explorace when she first started her career.

30-days blog challenge

I stumbled upon this on Hana's site. I do not know whether I could keep up but I am up for this! Simply join in if you are on the brink of not having the idea of what to post. At least we can keep our respective blogs alive, kan? :)

Day 01: A picture of yourself with 10 facts.

Day 02: A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest.
Day 03: A picture of the cast from your favorite show.
Day 04: A picture of your favourite night.
Day 05: A picture of your favourite memory.
Day 06: A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day.
Day 07: A picture of your most treasured item.
Day 08: A picture that makes you laugh.
Day 09: A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.
Day 10: A picture of the person you do the most fucking up things with.
Day 11: A picture of something you hate.
Day 12: A picture of something you love.
Day 13: A picture of your favorite band or artist.
Day 14: A picture of something you could never imagine your life without.
Day 15: A picture of something you want to do before you die.
Day 16: A picture of someone who inspires you.
Day 17: A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.
Day 18: A picture of your biggest insecurity.
Day 19: A picture and a letter.
Day 20: A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel.
Day 21: A picture of something you wish you could forget.
Day 22: A picture of something you wish you were better at.
Day 23: A picture of your favorite book.
Day 24: A picture of something you wish you could change.
Day 25: A picture of your favorite day.
Day 26: A picture of something that means a lot to you.
Day 27: A picture of yourself and a family member.
Day 28: A picture of something you're afraid of.
Day 29: A picture that can always make you smile.
Day 30: A picture of someone you miss.

Money money how you thrill me

This is an important intro to this post. Please read. *eheemmmmm*

So I am certain all the MU fans out there are mourning over their homeground defeat to ManCity. You don't have to wonder which team I am supporting right. Everyone pretty sure knows that I am a diehard fan of the Reds. Thus, YAAAAYYYYY to ManCity! Sorry uncles, cousins, Dad and of course.. the Prime Minister.

Today is the start of the 1 week sem break my college is having. As we are receiving our monthly allowance of RM 430 per month for foundation programmes, I am sad to declare that I have been spending them so unwisely. I am not a spend thrift. I am not. I am not. Okay enough with the denying missy. Let's see what I've spent them for. Clothes, movie tickets, food and necessary good. (note necessary) I know you do too. I therefore forgive myself for the spending. Bright side of it, I didn't have to ask kachings from my parents which is a good news to them and I too didn't have to carry the guilt for asking/begging for cash. Yes Mom and Dad, I do feel guilty for being such a spender :) but. i. just. can't. help. it.

Still, I must refrain myself from giving in to temptations, all these materials. My verdict to this is less outing. Plain impossible.

How did you spend your allowance? And what are your resolutions towards a spender like me?

Do share :)

Becca!

I am going to see Becca later yay! Rebecca Yuki Robert. Tara Nicole Robert.

Yes they're sisters.

First impression

What are the usual impression/s of people on you that you know of? Are you happy with it or vice versa?

As for the one speaking here, it defer according to the people themselves. I pretty got "muka sombong", "tida friendly", "not approachable", "garang", "blur-blur"... Hence, you've got the idea here.

A bit of clarification I may say. I am not sombong or what not. I do smile to people, with exception to strangers. But still, I do smile to certain strangers.. the good ones. My point is simple, don't judge a book by it's cover. You'll be surprised of the content without you knowing. Don't label.

Of course, I can't blame people entirely. It has been experimented that when Jane is not in favour of something, she shows it clearly on her face, according to her closest buddies. Yes, I am very frank, by looks especially. Yet, I know how hypocrisy can come in handy with a decent purpose.

I am not saddened (maybe a bit) nor angry of those impressions on me, but my little heart wishes people around aren't so judgemental. It also wishes that people will open their hearts and minds to accept the flaws that others have. I wish that the ethnocentrism in each of us won't prolong. I wish for friendship, a genuine one. I wish I simply wishes for things to be, just better.

To a dear friend of mine, I am truly sorry for having to judge you at first. I am also sorry that I did that based on what others told me of you. I am glad of our confrontation and the mistakes we admit on doing. I just want you to know that I'll be here for you whenever you need me. Do not be discouraged of your past, everyone has theirs. God is ever merciful.

This goes to another friend, I know that it's hard to have faith when things go all wrong and unanswered. I know how hard it is to believe when we are not seeing what we want to see. I truly know. But as much as I said that I know, only you know yourself best. I hope that you won't give up and consume those anger in you. I pray that He opens your heart, once again.

Let them hate, as long as they fear.

Mother Nature versus Us

Earlier this morning, we (wherever you are in any part of Sabah) experienced the heavy rain and thunderstorm. As for myself, I was awaken at around 4-ish when I felt bit of the vibration perhaps coming from the thunder itself, all loud and mighty. On my way to college, fallen trees and poles everywhere. Traffic jam was massive. But that's not the point, my point is.. we can never go against Mother Nature.

As far as I can recall, this is the worst by far. I am still puzzled of how the construction signage at the entrance of my college could collapse to that extent. I'm taking it as somehow also a wake up call that we can never expect what's ahead. Be it the awful weather or life threatening situations, we often take life for granted. Only during these times that we slowly recite our prayers because we are afraid. True or false, we ourselves determine.

Again, at the end of the day, we are all human. I, you, her, and him. Often too stubborn, often too neglectful, often too ignorant. Let's then just live life to the fullest without never failing to appreciate what we are blessed with.

Mother Nature always wins.

Let bygones be bygones

This blog has been totally obsolete. My apologies goes to those who dropped by my chat box, I didn't get to reply all of you on time. Hi all! And of course thank you for those who are following. Shia bilang... biasa-biasa seja ni... :)

Months passed, entered new phases of life and rare experiences gained. May it be bitter, sweet, spicy or sour, I am very much grateful to have learnt my lessons. Family, love, friendship and most of all God - are reasons why I am still standing strong til the very moment. Since I am still blurred with what I should write about, I'll go on about the four above.

Family - I consider myself as being very fortunate and blessed to have a family like mine. I have a mother that is not only just a mother, but acts as a best friend and a guardian angel. I have a father who cooks the most amazing food that my tummy can afford. I have two younger sisters that are part time annoyance to my head yet never fail to rock my days and nights especially. In short, they are the ones who have been my backbone and I thank God everyday for them.

Love & Friendship - There are just certain things that you can't hold on to for too long. Do what you think is best and never regret! Because regrets are stupid. For now, thank you am. For keeping up with me! For the friendship. You know who you are. Tarster and Nicky, love you both, for not failing to be with me.

The Almighty God - I may not be that religious and all, but I strongly believe in what my religion teaches me. Though there are so many times that you and I failed to obey, I believe that God is merciful and ever forgiving. I pray and thank God for His blessings despite my ignorance. God is love and love is God.

That's it for now. Still reminiscing the consequences I have to bear for procrastinating on my EI assignment. Sob. Lesson learnt!

I'm lovin it

First week of lectures was an easy going one. My class even get to dismiss earlier than the timetable. So far we had Language Description, Emotional Intelligence, English Studies, Social Studies and Language Development. I have to say that Social Studies is my favourite so far because it simply can be related to what's revolving around anywhere at anytime. Anyhow, still think it's a little too early to judge because this week was all about the introductions and knowing what to expect.

I casted my vote yesterday for the very first time for the JPP election. An official voting where you have to cross the candidate that you choose and put it into the box provided. Ha ha.. I was hyped up a while for feeling all important. Vain. There's this event tomorrow called 1Murid 1Sukan 1Malaysia that will be held simultaneously throughout schools in Malaysia to officiate the implementation of 1Murid 1Sukan. 3 million participations is said to be expected. This time I will not be running as a school pupil anymore, but as a Teacher Trainee. Cross fingers I will not end up strutting.

On another hand, today's discussion during Language Development class was about Writing Process where our topic just had to be..... Justin Bieber. Bieberism. Bieber Fever. How did he started? What's our role? Why has he affected us? ( I know right! ) Very interesting and argumental much because obviously there was love and hate opinions where hatred dominated and my group solely remained neutral, no feelings, we're neutral observers. As for me, I have nothing against Bieber, I have the shirt from his recent concert in KL, I listen to his songs and he's living his dream. Come on, give that boy some space to live his life. As simple as that. We too talked about homosexuality and how gay people have their basic rights. I love intriguing discussions! After LD we were supposed to have Thinking Skills lecture but lecturer didn't turn up so pictures below marks the end of the first Friday at IPG.

Nicole and I. Coincidently wore the same turquoise coloured kurung

As camera ready as ever

That's Nicole, Tara, Bobby, Bernard and I. Bernard has the biiiigest obsession on Gaga! I will be happily stucked in class with this people for another 5 years half. Of course the others too but they're a little special due to their whacky-ness. They're such joy!

Happy running to all the students in the whole country and be sure to have all the fun you can in your own ways! I'm talking like a teacher already.

A new journey begins

I have to skip my update for the trip to Korea first because I do not have much time as I've entered IPG last week. So, I'm up for a new journey that will take a duration of five and a half years. As of a week ago, I am officially a student at a learning institution called Institut Pendidikan Guru Kampus Gaya located not far from Kota Kinabalu. I am majoring in Teaching English as Second Languange or its acronym -TESL. My minor subject is yet to be known tomorrow.

Us freshies had our orientation for four days after we registered. The orientation is known as Minggu Pengenalan Pelajar Baharu (MPPB). The seniors conducted it for us and we had activities according to the schedule given. Among them were talks by the lecturers, group presentations, recreational activities, games, learned the official songs, sharings and discussions on various topics, and we had Malam Kebudayaan during the last night of orientation where my group performed Dikir Barat, a traditional Malay dance and singing originated from Terengganu. It was indeed a tough week yet another experience that I am very much grateful of.

During my stay at the hostel, I became closely knit with two beautiful people, one whom I've already known and she's also a friend's big sister, Nicole Michael and a new friend, Tara Nicole Robert. We were together most of the time (shower is an exception) - eat, giggle, gossip etc...and we even slept next to each other in a room of ten people. The three of us decided that after the orientation we will not be staying at the hostel since our respective houses is not that far from the campus.

Back to my stay there, I encountered new surroundings as I was in an all girls school for exactly eleven years and that was since my primary days. Now there are male students everywhere as well and in some way I still feel a bit funny because now being decent does matter unlike before, my friends and I and all the girls in the school, we do almost everything very loudly..well, the Convent girls do. Ha..ha... Aside from that, I met people of various backgrounds and walks of life and again, tolerance is very crucial. There are people's nature that we just must get used to regardless you like it, or not.

By far, I am enjoying it at the institute as the lecturers and seniors are all very helpful and approachable, and I am anticipating lots of fun activities that are going to come up. Tomorrow I will assemble together with all the batches and I am a bit nervous though, that is why I hate first times! and will also be attending my first tutorial and classes.

To sum them all up, I just feel honoured to be part of this institution and I couldn't care less what everyone else had to say with me being a teacher in the future, that this job is boring and unglamourous. I feel these opinions are very shallow and old. I am making this clear not because I am trying to act out of annoyance, but there are those opinions that passed through my ears which I am not very pleased with but time will tell. I very much believe that this place will bring out the best of my potentials and to my fellow TESLians and future educators, let's contemplate on this quote - "A teacher affects eternity, he can never tell where his influence stops". God bless us all. Have a blessed Sunday!

South Korea Day 2

Hello South Korea! At Incheon International Airport.

After about 4 hours and 30 minutes in the plane, we have officially landed at the Incheon International Airport, South Korea! We then ride on a bus for another 3 hours to our destination, the Okcheon and Modan School. Doctor Yun and Mr. Kim were there to welcome our arrival. Mr. Kim presented a slide show on the activities and purposes of the school and he emphasized on "Sarangbang". Sarangbang is a project based on the concept of 'People Makes the City'. It involves public cultural activities with the villagers, having a closer contact with local community, and use of abandoned hair-shop for the project. Their main activities were reading, watching movie and program development for the multi-cultural community and their children. Amongst programmes for multi-cultural community that was held before were "Cook the Poem" in the year 2009 where they had chat about their culture through a cooking session followed by "Cook the Life" which was a combined cooking and counseling program in the year 2010.

Geng blakang bas -Michael, Michelle, Adam, Me & Serena. We were on our way to Okcheon and Modan School.

With darling Beny. I can't recall the name of this place. We stopped by a little while for some snacks where I had Dunkin Donuts

Behind the truck that transported us and our bags to the school. I was all hyped up!

The welcoming banner for the Sabahans. Thank you with love!


Attentively listening to Mr. Kim

After the brief explanation made by Doctor Yun and Mr. Kim, we proceeded to ceramic mug painting. We get to design our very own mug which was out of my expertise. *smirks* Towards afternoon, we had our very first meal in a foreign place, which also means foreign taste and the thought of "saaadaaap ka tu ah?" It turned out ok lah! He he heh.

With our mugs

All that I could think of to paint on my mug. Is that even painting?

My very 'artistic' side!

Lunch - white rice + bull's eye egg + kimchii (this was a torture to my starving tummy)

Dr. Yun brought us for BMW RIDING around the school. BMW - not the car. It meant sightseeing, sightseeing by feet. Done with sightseeing, we then watched the students of the school perform Salmonari in an open space stage area. Salmonari in Malaysia is similar to the Pancaragam, but using their very own traditional instruments. Despite the languange barrier, I appreciate all their efforts in teaching us to play and eventually we sounded right and cool yo! ;-P

Sherry and I. She's a sturdent there. Very helpful and can speak English!

Salmonari session. The session where awkward sign languanges came in handy

Before we head for *shrugs* dinner, we did two rounds of rehearsals at the open stage. After dinner, we got back into the bus and headed to the village we were to perform. 6 of my friends involved in the Pinakang dance (lthank good...ness I wasn't in the dance, I was bad at Pinakang..real bad) had to perform in an unusual cold weather. The remaining of us watched from not so far, in a tahan sejuk air~~

Left to right - Serena, Eleena, Bosco, Jerry, Ira & Kathleen

Sharin, Beny & I at our seats

As soon as they finished performing, we were finally brought to the place where we were to stay for 2 nights. We the girls had our own house and the boys with the teachers in another house. There, we met Jaramier Joibi, a KDCA-ISCEP Alumni and currently pursuing his studies in one of the university in Korea. We had him to share with us his experience and oh boy, you should have listened to him talk Korean, super fluent! Soon after, we the girls got back to our house and goodnight, it was indeed a long day.

Oh wait!

My girls and I having our supper... Maggi (Malaysian Maggi!) before bed!
Now,Goodnight!

South Korea Day 1

I would like to share a once in a lifetime experience that was given to me last year in October. I was chosen to represent my school for the KDCA-International Students Exchange Program to South Korea 2010. Alongside with me from my school were two of my juniors Michelle Boyou and Freda Jane as well as a teacher which was Miss Jackelyn Robert (one of my favourite teacher!). Earlier in May, the KDCA-ISCEP Fundraising Concert was held and my involvement was being the emcee with Adam. All the 23 students chosen for this program were also those involved in the Fundraising Concert. To begin with, we were given a green covered note book as our journal during our 8 days stay. The following will be what I've penned down in that book..

Day 1 - 15th October 2010

I have arrived at Kota Kinabalu International Airport with my mother, my little sister Alisha and my cousin Gwen. Before I left for KKIA, I went to my grandparents' place to bid them goodbye. ( I know, 8days only). Many of my relatives were there to prepare for my aunt's wedding the next day. I was in tears because I've waited so long for the day she will be wedded. I wouldn't missed it for the world, but I eventually did. Anyhow, I gave a hug to everyone and left for KKIA. At KKIA, as soon as all the boarding procedures were completed, we took group pictures and had meal at McD's and departed for South Korea at 12.15 A.M.

Aunt Beryl and I. Yes this is my aunt who was about to get married the following day. Look at the background, wedding day chaos.

The entourage before leaving for South Korea

My plane mates, Adam and Jonathan


Bukan slalu naik Korean Air! Korean Air stewardess and I. This was upon arrival. We were observing her paitung-ed face all the time. Spot the difference

Now and then

I have been on and off on Blogger for quite some time. And each time I'm back writing I can't help the tendency to delete all the previous posts. I hope this time my intention to keep this blog alive will work out, regardless if this is even read! So to start off with, I'm going to share of what I've been up to since leaving high school for approximately 6 months already.

As soon as SPM was over in mid-November last year, I thought I could keep myself occupied with.. *excites!* super-exciting-things-I've-been-wanting-to-do-if-I-have-all-the-time-in-the-world. Wait, that was robotic mode speaking so yeah, you get what I meant. First few weeks off-school was pretty fine but went on worst cause I was already dying of the repetitions of my daily routines. Give me a break.

Mid January I signed up for a job at Beverly Hotel, KK through my aunt who is the Front Office Manager there. I did the clerking duties - picking up phone calls, arranging files etc etc etc.. This almost killed me too cause the job was not challenging any part of me at all. Few months passed I managed to do little bits of the Receptionist's job, which is to entertain guest at the Front Desk and it became pretty exciting then. The job paid decent wage but I love the people and affection back there. I quit mid May.

Towards the end of May, I was asked to partner with Adam again to host the KDCA-ISCEP Fundraising Concert 2011 in conjunction with the Harvest Festival (Kaamatan as the Sabahans call it) and also to raise funds to subsidise the fees for the Students Exchange Program to South Korea. It was a privilege and I am happy to have done it again this year as this was my actual interest, hosting events. The most valuable lesson I learned was of course I gained maturity in handling uncertain circumstances such as my partner's mic wasn't functioning when we were supposed to do the welcoming greetings together and I had to do it solely. For a moment was so upset, could have been grand-er but as told, the show must always go on.

Now it's June already, yes how time flies sweethearts. I am currently counting the days to enter the Teaching Institute, Gaya Campus on the 20th of June. I am taking the course Teaching English as a Second Language ( TESL ) for primary school education. Yes to tell you the truth, this wasn't my lifetime ambition, used to when i was a little kid but through the past years, everything kept on changing including not getting to decide what I wanted to do for the rest of my life. The process wasn't easy, the after SPM process especially was a hectic one, dealing with submitting applications, attending interviews to get qualified or not, your own surroundings convincing what and what you should do - Mister Mind or Mister Heart will be more powerful this time?

Teaching, Law or Mass Communication? All with their pros and cons. Neither the heart nor the mind was more powerful, they had to be equal and that was what I totally did to yours truly and guess what, I am a future "Teacher Jane" and more than happy to know that.